Hands in so many pies

Sometimes I wish i could be one of those people who have this one strong passion and can devote so much of their time to it. However, instead I see all possibilities of everything I could be into and see sparks everywhere. I'm like a kid in a candy store with this life thing. So much so that I cannot focus and be great at one or two things. I love acquiring skills, I cannot stop. And I don't get bored of any of the things I start, there are just so many things I want to do I get distracted for a minute and come back to it later. Things I have taken classes in in the last several years include swimming, salsa, ballet, fiddle, yoga, etc. etc. Things I want refocus on a lot more are my severely neglected Spanish, writing, and drawing skills, among many other things. I like to keep busy, maybe because I have so much restless energy if I don't keep myself moving in a structured way I just flounder and get depressed and unsure what to do with myself. I'll stay in bed all day in my head, or pace back and forth across my home wringing my hands. So many undirected energies and so little focus. I hate that I'm such a mess but I'm trying to learn how to best handle myself, direct myself, nurture myself to be as productive and functional (and thus, happy) as I can and want to be. A big problem is, I forget about things. Completely. And then they pop back up out of nowhere and I cannot believe I ever forgot. Once I get my shit semi-together I feel like I'm walking a wobbly thread and could fall apart at any stumble. But i'm trying really hard. One day I'll get there.